I wonder if it is that I'm still trying to find my way. Trying to find what I'm good at. Trying to find people/girlfriends who like to do what I like to do. Find a hobby that I won't quit at after 6 months. The longest I did something was volunteer for the North Texas SPCA. I did that for over 12 years. I loved it but I wasn't married, didn't have 4 kids, 4 kids-in-law, 5 grand-kids and a job that was 30 miles away.... oh yea, I was 20 years younger too. That actually was a lot of fun.
Right now my job has taken a HUGE turn. Same job, just more of it. Woo Hoo, just what I wanted more stuff. I know there has to be balance and trust me, I'm good at making sure the work stuff doesn't take over. I love my church family, I wouldn't have made it through the past 9 months without them but as with anything where there are lots of people thrown together there is drama. I'm blessed, I know that... but blessed doesn't always translate to bubbly happy. And trust me, I know bubbly happy isn't possible all the time.
I have one of the best husbands in the world. If I could rent him out, I know several who would take me up om that! We have a blast together. We love to travel, cook, eat, fish whatever it is, if we're together we're having fun. But he doesn't want to be my sole source of entertainment and I don't want to be his. You have to have other stuff going on to be balanced.
So, yep I have struggles in figuring out what to do. I have burnout when things don't meet my expectations... so then there are dreams..... (diner only serving breakfast and lunch in a small town somewhere out in the country).
What are your struggles? What is your burnout? What is your dream?
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